Toes in the sand

Today I'm grateful for....

Laughing at Jones's glog about staying detached from the chaos, knowing that's how I've always lived my life (detached) and aside from the immediate days after michael's death and a few other very important times in my life, I can't comprehend being attached to every day chaos. I just need things to be simple and calm. No drama please!

Starting to use the time when I can't sleep to my advantage. Instead of laying in bed and trying to sleep, getting up and getting stuff done. I used to worry a lot about what people thought of me because I slept late or kept weird hours, but I've been doing it so long now that I just feel like that's the way my body is supposed to sleep and I don't apologise for doing what I need to do for me.

Learning that I have two admirers, one who is finally older!-45 retired military, the other is very young, but worth flirting with, he likes to dance! I am discovering how much fun dating can be and really enjoying myself- while continuing to be a lady of course :)

Continuing to think about my trip this summer with my girls. Of course I've done no planning, I wouldn't be me if I actually planned something.-----Does that mean I hate commitment?

Sit ups. I love doing sit ups while I'm watching weird stuff on tv. Tonight I did them while watching a very interesting documentary about the "Iceman", a notorious contract killer for the mafia. People who behave outside of the norm are really interesting to me-must be why psychology interests me so much.

Kelsey's huge 8th grade class picture in front of Easttipp that we got today. She had to be the rebel, every one else who's sitting has their legs bent to their chests, Kelsey has one foot way out in front. I saw her right away. :)

Looking forward to a nice day tomorrow so I can drive the convertible-with the top down of course.

That my daughters ask me before doing most things even when I'm not home. Taylor has just recently asked if she can start wearing some make up to school and has respected my requests for her to only wear lip gloss and some eye shadow.

That when I called Charlie to see about Kelsey's piercing he said she has to be 16! I was all about taking her to get her ear pierced, but for some reason when he said she had to be 16 I was elated. What's that about?

Getting my nails done. If I don't wear fake nails I chew on them and the skin around them making my fingers look awful.

Thoughts of my toes in the sand and michael. Every time he loaded film in the camera he always took the first picture or two of his foot, or feet, or leg. Remembering his belly laughs when I would tell people about the strange things he did, like the photos. The thing is, yes it was silly, but he always had a reason for his silliness. So, now those of you who have seen me take pictures of my feet or toes in various locations know the reason behind the foot photos-he is always with me :)

Getting excited with Kelsey about everything that goes along with starting High School.

That Kelsey has taught herself how to speak a good portion of the Japanese language by watching movies in English then re-watching them in Japanese, also by listening to Japanese music that has an English translation. She will be taking Japanese her freshman year.


Watching my daughters making their own way through life.