Births and Re-births

Today I'm grateful for........

Baby Finney's birth! Aiden James Finney will be called AJ, how cute! Mom and dad are doing well and are supposed to be going home today. Isn't he sweet.

AJ's birth/new life making me think about rebirth and the new life that I am creating for myself and my girls as we speak.

Using my time wisely.....couldn't sleep lastnight so I made chicken soup with lots of fresh veggies, put it on low in the crock pot and ...ta da...dinner for tonight when I didn't have time to cook.

Big accomplishments in my bedroom :) I mean, sorting through, cleaning out, and purging! Finally hanging some art work, moving furniture around, and hopefully by tomorrow I wont be afraid to leave my bedroom door open any more. (my bedroom is right off the living room)

Finding lots of good books and things while sorting, to pass along to Jessica and her family.

Getting help with the weeds that are taller than me since we were gone so much this summer!! They'll all be gone by next week and I'll have pretty flower beds full of flowers again instead of over grown weeds.

Making my house look like a house again instead of a deteriorating box full of memories and grief.

Finally getting some help with my fence yeah!!!!

Looking forward to Taylor cheering thursday and friday.

Running into people I knew in high school, at the high school :) Because I have to be there for Kelsey and Taylor's functions I'm running into old aquaintences.

Lunch plans with Erika for later this week.

Finding myself smiling so often now, just randomly, for random reasons. Knowing that I am happy now, alone, and in charge of my life again. Knowing that being alone right now is great for me, I really am not ready for some one else in my life at this time, but I'm getting there. The getting there is the part that I'm happiest about, all of the changes that I'm creating in my life that are helping me to move forward so I can be in a place where I'm ready to share my life again. Every thing that didn't make sense to me in the first years after Michael died, has finally become so clear and easy. After he passed I always said when my house was sorted through and put together that's when I would be ready to have people in my life again, and now I finally feel things coming together. That feeling of constantly spinning your wheels and getting no where really sucks, but now I'm moving again and I believe I can fly.

Asking for what I want, calmly, clearly, and being understood and obliged.

Taking the time to figure out exactly what I want to happen in my life and being specific when asking.

Ripples upon ripples, upon ripples of knowledge, understanding, and love being radiated, passed on in infinite ways to infinite amounts of people.

Looking at the painting I did of a beach scene with a stormy sky and thinking I'd like to see a sunny sky there.

Taking the time to focus on fixing me instead of running around trying to fix every one else so I don't have to focus on me.

Watching Jones become more and more beautiful every day, and knowing it's happening to me too because we are living in grattitude and living life the way we want to. A nice smile helps too :>

Attracting strong, healthy, independent, open minded, beautiful, intelligent women into my world and creating luscious heart to heart life time relationships with these ladies.

Attracting strong, healthy, open minded, independent, intelligent, financially stable, non addicted, beautiful men into my world and creating life long heart to heart relationships with these men.

I am grateful that I have sooooooo much to be grateful for every single day of my life.

Good things are happening to the people I love.

I have friends and family who "dream and make things happen".

Life is so damn good!