Being inspired

Today I am grateful for.......

Missing the rock climbing trip this weekend even though I wanted so badly to see my close friends. I think I was actually supposed to stay home this weekend, I had an experience of my own that has moved me to appreciate life and living even more than before. I ended up spending Saturday afternoon with a friend of mine and her mom who is currently fighting cancer. They told her she only had 6 months to live, Sunday was the six month mark and she's still here, still fighting. I've watched her go like the energizer bunny until she can no longer stand all because she doesn't know how much longer she'll live and she's afraid of missing something. I've watched her for weeks now soaking everything she can in with her eyes. I see the joy in her eyes when she's with her daughters, friends, and family, and at the same time I see the incredible sadness in her face. My heart just aches for her, for them.
.....I know the affect this situation could have on their lives, the possible devastation as well as all the growth that comes from an experience like this.
I know only good things will come for this family, that this experience will bring a close family even closer. Val will live and experience everything that she is supposed to and her life from now on will be a joyous one.

I am continuing to make changes in my life, some of them easy, some them not so easy, ...but they will all lead to a better version of me :)
Every one of us can be a phoenix, we all have the ability to change our lives we just have to be brave enough to take the first step and from there momentum is all we need.

The lavender post card I got in the mail today from jones, obviously meant to remind me of our time in WA that meant so much to me. The travelling funeral continues, just don't know where it will lead me next :)

Having my voice back.

Windows open, falling leaves.

Walking with hippy this weekend and all the stars I could see in that little place of paradise.

Taylor's steadfastness, some would call it being stubborn, but I am now choosing to embrace her persistence and tenaciousness so that I can have more inner peace, ..... and not strangle my hormonal 12 year old daughter who thinks she's always right about everything!

Sharing uplifting music with Val, and with my friend Jess, music that will make them smile.

The gold in the fields yesterday evening as the sun was setting on my way home.

Messages from Dis again, and a long awaited phone call last night. He's finally out of the field and can communicate with the real world again :) Hearing that he thought of me while watching the green of the Northern Lights Sunday morning, and memories of sharing my story with him before he got stationed in Alaska. His plans for coming home in December, and knowing he will have an excellent visit. He always makes me smile and I am so happy I got to talk to him for so long last night, what a treat.

Talking with jess today and plans to get together this week.

Making family plans for next week.

Knowing I'll be able to hear the coyotes across the field from my house soon. They howl when the nearby train blows it's horn in late fall/early winter.

Steamed broccoli

Meaningful, email communication with Vance,... I feel incredibly lucky to be learning the pieces of my friends life that I never knew and seeing a side of him that I had heard about but never experienced.

Being able to pay my bills every month without worrying, .... I am so very lucky.

Living a more active lifestyle.

A close girlfriend who LOVES to ORGANIZE! Letting go of my fear and letting her come in and help with my organizational disability :)

A message from Annabanana, she has a sunshine smile just like my little Taylor, it's infectious, and she's so beautiful.

Hearing from sobe, feeling the "positivity" and the long distance love :)

People who inspire me to live differently, to live life the way I want to.

Doing exactly what pleases me and appreciating every minute.

Hearing the ocean when the wind blows through the leaves in the trees in my yard.

My roses still blooming, the blooms on my moonstone rose that Michael gave me being so ginormous this year!

Watching the blooms on the clematis close in the evening and open in the morning, I'm easily entertained I guess, but I love it.

The way the gold from the setting or rising sun turns everything mundane into magic. ..."as long as I can dream, life is worth living"

Good things are happening for the people I love.

you my inspiration, you.