Today I am grateful for.....
A conversation at the benefit last week with Cindy about grief, the mistakes you make after loosing someone, really connecting with her, listening to her tell me her story which was a repeat of my own, learning from her and knowing what she meant when she said "numb-dumb".
Respecting my elders and appreciating the stories that make up their lives.
karma
Friday:
A lovely day at the Covered Bridge Festival with my mom, her boyfriend dennis, and my daughters. All the shopping, walking, talking, and all my favorite festival foods. Finding the perfect quilt and shams at the festival (been looking for a long time). Seeing all the "treasures" my daughters were interested in and watching their excitement at getting to shop and buy what was important to them.
Spending Friday night partying with both my sisters and Jessica! Yea all of us out at the same time! So much fun, singing (Tracie and I played rock stars with the pool cues) and dancing, talking, I beat Tracie at pool :) Jessica beat Lisa at checkers :) Watching my dad light up, full of pride at watching his daughters play and be silly together, (things he missed out on when we were little). Dancing to Jack Johnson (it's always better when we're together) in the parking lot all by ourselves with Jess.
My mom for keeping all the kids so my sisters and I could have our night of fun.
My dad jumping through all the hoops and finally getting health insurance, getting his physical and getting the much needed medication to keep him healthy.
Saturday:
Messages from Dis about his weekend so far he went to a friend's parent's house for dinner. Remembering how much it meant for the Navy guys who were away from home to be able to spend a few hours away from the ship, see a bit of normalcy, have a good meal, and conversation about something other than the Navy and work. We used to have Mike's friends over about once a week when we lived on the base in CA, WA and VA.
Getting to take DJ to my Aunt's get together on the river cuz Tracie was in MI.
A beautiful evening with my dad's family on the Tippy. Lots of good food, a fire, roasting hot dogs over the fire. Being reminded how much work and attention a three year old requires when you're not in a safe environment where you can just let them run!
Coming home tired, staying in even though I had invites to go out. Watching a stupid movie that made me laugh and gag and wonder why I watched it all the way through, disgusting! Getting a good nights sleep.
Sunday:
Messages from jones Sat. and Sun. telling me the progress of Craig's amazing race!!!! AMAZING!
Chatting with Vance about the majestic day! Hearing about his five mile walk with Holly, and telling him about my walk with Taylor.
The perfect weather Sunday.
All the color in the leaves now :)
Finishing a specific painting that will bring some closure to that part of my life. Getting it ready to sell so I can get the bad energy out of my house.
Monday:
A quiet morning, getting the girls off to school easily and effortlessly.
Sleeping for two more hours after they left for school.
Chatting with Jess about our similar situations with our daughters. Laughing together and finding peace in knowing our situations are not unique and we are not alone in dealing with our stubborn daughters who want to be independent but their behavior shows us that they still need their moms desperately.
Another beautiful day waiting for me to start some yard work and finish some outside projects.
Being on the right path, the one that's right for me :) Not feeling guilty for the way I choose to live my life, ....after all it is my life.
Knowing my job at this time, my purpose right now is first to be a mother, and second to focus on healing and strengthening my body, mind, and spirit. Knowing that it is ok that these are my priorities now, and when I feel it's time to move on to something else I will.
I am enough and I have everything I need. ......I'm dressing as Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz for Halloween, ......"you've had the power all along" :) "there's no place like home" :)
Wonderful friends who give me unconditional love and acceptance. Friends who keep me in check, call me out, and make me pull back and look at things from a different perspective.
Love in all forms.
Coming home to my heart, my mind, .... and feeling like I have both feet firmly on the ground again.
Good things are happening for the people I love.
you my little bunch of karma, you.
